Jekyll & Hyde: The Musical ’95 vs. ’97: Part III

Quick recap: Jekyll has transformed into Hyde and we’re now moving onto the next time Lucy and Jekyll meet. Another remind is that in ’13, we see Hyde give Lucy the wound that she’ll go to Jekyll for later, which is my favorite example of tell-over-show because it completely ruins the later shock of her wound, and I’ll be talking about the importance of that shock value now.

So, the next time we see Lucy, she comes to Jekyll to follow up on his offer of friendship because she’s received a nasty wound from one of her customers. The scenes between ’95 and ‘97 are similar, but cutting the meeting between Hyde and Lucy changes the impact of the realization that the customer was Hyde. In ’97 it’s more of a shock because it’s less clear that Hyde’s been seeing Lucy. It’s also just less clear what Hyde’s doing overall, and I do like that Jekyll in ’97 has to, with the audience, very quickly and in front of Lucy process the real horrors he as Hyde has committed, since it’s implied that he doesn’t really remember what Hyde does. He has to do the same thing in ’95 – I can see his face in the ’95 recording unlike the ’97 recording and he does absolutely panic for a second – but because the audience has a better sense of what Hyde’s been doing, it comes as less of a shock.

There are also some other small changes. There’s an additional line in ‘95. Lucy says “He enjoyed himself doing it too,” which hits pretty hard when you know who it was. (This line is back in ’13 and seems to be more in-line with the kink aspect of Lucy and Hyde’s relationship that they’ve added for some reason.) In ’95 when Lucy says it was Hyde, Jekyll honestly sounds like he’s about to cry in his response. In ’97, the reveal is dragged out more and Jekyll moves around more purposefully, if also more frantically and simply more than in ‘95. When he hears Hyde’s name, again his face is really hard to see, but his response is more measured, like he’s trying to help instead of being wildly guilty. He’s guiltier later when he starts to tend to her wound and she gasps, and he responds, “I’m so sorry,” pauses and again, “I’m so sorry,” clearly losing his composure. I think that the two different response work for the set-up they have, which is to say that ’97 draws things out and builds more because we don’t know as much about what Hyde’s doing and ’95 hits it harder and sooner because we know that Hyde’s been seeing her.

The biggest difference, though, I think is when Lucy kisses Jekyll. She initiates it in both, but the way she does it is very different. In ‘95, she moves slowly, pulling him down onto his knees first, putting him a fairly stable position in front of her before she kisses him, so that even at the beginning he seems to be pretty on board with it. In ‘97, she takes his hand while he’s standing behind her and then pulls him down, unbalancing him, when he tries to jerk away. The kiss is prolonged and afterwards Jekyll startles away in both, although he remains close in ‘95 instead of rushing across the room as he does in ’97. Overall he’s much more startled and reluctant in ‘97, another example of scrubbing away some of his more questionable qualities in the later version. I like the kiss better in ’97 because it destabilizes him, and I’m generally in favor of moments that throw characters off-balance.

In terms of Lucy herself, she comes in more boldly in ‘97 but is ultimately more skittish in both her hand movements and delivery. She’s a lot more straightforward in ‘95 with less pauses, partially because in ‘97 she’s building up to the reveal about Hyde and so has to put in more hesitation. Either way her real characterization in the scene comes when she sings “Sympathy, Tenderness” and then “Someone like You,” and her performance is fairly similar between the two. The emphasis is on her falling in love with Jekyll’s kindness. ‘97 Lucy is sarcastic and worldly, but she’s also optimistic in a way that makes her feel naïve, and therefore more likely to fall for Jekyll so quickly after only a little kindness. I still feel like ‘95 Lucy feels like she ought to know better, but if you read it as she does know better, it makes her story a lot more tragic because it shows a desperation and a recognition of how dire her situation is getting that she starts clinging to this one chance to get out.

After this encounter, Hyde goes on a rampage, killing the Board of Governors, singing “Alive” for the third/second time. Jekyll’s friends becoming increasingly concerned and Lucy shares a duet with Emma (Jekyll’s fiancé, oh right she’s in this show too) about Jekyll.

Hyde then returns to Lucy at the Red Rat, although in ’95 there’s an added scene before he gets there where the performers sing “Girls of the Night” and Lucy sings “No One Knows Who I Am.” Moving “No One Knows Who I Am” here positions it much less as a song of identity and more as a Dark Night of the Soul moment. She’s gotten some help from Jekyll, but she’s mostly in increasing danger from Hyde. No one, including Jekyll, is coming to help her and opening up to Jekyll has made it increasingly obvious to Lucy that she’s in a bad situation that’s making her miserable.

This leads to one of my favorite lines in the show. It is in both, but ’95 emphasizes it better. In ’95, at the end of Lucy’s song, when she says that no one knows who she is, from the darkness, Jekyll – and it is distinctly Jekyll’s voice – says, “I know who you are, my dear,” and Lucy moves instinctively toward him. It is, however, not Jekyll, but Hyde. Lucy says, “I thought it was someone else,” to which Hyde responds, “For a moment, it almost was.” Jekyll’s initial line is a little corny, but we need to hear that Jekyll really was almost there. I know we need Jekyll’s line because it’s not there in ’97 and I completely missed the exchange the first time I watched it. So what happens in ’97 is that someone tells Lucy a friend is there to see her, and again she responds instinctively, but she’s working off the assumption that it’s Jekyll rather him actually being present. Lucy and Hyde then exchange the same lines in ’97 as they do in ’95 (“I thought it was someone else,” “For a moment, it almost was”), but without Jekyll’s lead-in it’s easy to miss not only the lines themselves, but the implication.

I love this moment, especially in ’95, for three reasons. First, it emphasizes that Jekyll is losing control of Hyde. The shows vary pretty wildly on how much they emphasize this point, and I would say ’95 does it the most, and ’97 perhaps the least. But generally it’s expressed in reflective solos from Jekyll, and I like that we get to see it actually happening within the plot. Second, this line is so tragic. It’s at this point that Jekyll realizes Lucy is in danger, and although he sends her a warning, Lucy is burned that he didn’t come himself, so she stays and Hyde kills her shortly thereafter. This implies that, if Jekyll had managed to keep control right now, he could have saved her. So in retrospect, this line hurts a lot. Third, as I’ve said, every time Hyde taunts people it hits really hard and I love it.

Hyde and Lucy then sing “Dangerous Game,” which is a song I love and a song that works thematically, and a song that makes less and less sense the more I think about it. The point of “Dangerous Game” is that Lucy and Hyde’s relationship is tempting and seductive, but also violent and dangerous. This makes sense for Hyde because Hyde’s freedom and aliveness is seductive, but also violent. It also makes sense that Hyde would think of their relationship like this. But it makes less sense that Lucy is currently feeling tempted because in all of their scenes together, she is only ever afraid of him. This is less obvious in ‘97 because this is actually their first scene together, and you could assume she’d been attracted to him at some point if you wanted, but her earlier scene with Jekyll and her later terror of Hyde don’t really bear that out, nor does her generally more skittish personality. We might assume her more jaded personality in ‘95 could lead to more attraction, maybe, but it ultimately makes even less sense because she straight up ran away from him during their first meeting. So I like the song, it just doesn’t really make sense in any version.

The main difference in the scene between ’95 and ‘97 is the staging, plus the small difference that at the end ’95 Lucy gives into the temptation and ’97 Lucy does not. In ‘97 the scene is very tight, all of it taking place with their bodies very close and at the front of the stage as a physical confrontation characterized by small and violent movements. In ‘95 it’s more dynamic. It starts close, and then several times Lucy moves away and Hyde follows. Toward the end it becomes a chase until Hyde catches Lucy. This allows ‘95 to escalate more as Hyde starts throwing chairs and chasing Lucy, but I think the heightened tension of the whole scene in ’97 works better because Lucy’s situation isn’t getting worse, it’s already really bad, and ’97 manages to keep the tension the whole time without it becoming exhausting.

Lucy’s final scene has, in my opinion, the absolutely wildest difference between the two shows, which comes at the very end of the scene. They start the same, but end very differently. In both, Utterson shows up with a letter telling Lucy to leave town and Lucy is upset that Jekyll didn’t show up himself. I’m not really clear on why she doesn’t leave, but there is some implication that she’s either waiting for Jekyll or would have left if he’d shown up. (Or maybe she’s just waiting until morning? I don’t know.) Lucy sings “A New Life” and then Hyde shows up. One small change is that in ’95, before Utterson left Jekyll, Jekyll clearly starts to turn into Hyde, which I do like because, again, it’s clearer that Jekyll is losing control and it creates a ticking time bomb because we know Hyde can’t be too far behind Utterson.

In the confrontation between Hyde and Lucy, the main ideas are the same, but ’97 does it a lot more efficiently and clearly. I’ve spent a lot of time praising ’95, but ’97 mostly wins out on these last few scenes. In ’95, Hyde spends a while trying to get the letter from Lucy, while in ’97 he just finds it on the dresser. In both he is clearly already aware of the letter, and it’s definitely a power trip getting Lucy to admit she has it in ‘95, but it feels unnecessary. Hyde also brings up Jekyll later in ’95 and I don’t like the way he does it as much. In ’95 he just asks if she’s seen Jekyll and then Lucy asks if he knows Jekyll. His answer in ’95 is a really classic example of saying what sounds like a list of different things, but really it’s just a bunch of synonyms: “Of course I know him, as well as I know myself. We are very old friends, he and I. Very close to one another. We share all of each other’s secrets.” ’97 opts for, “Oh, we’re close, very close, he and I. We share everything, just as you and I do.” The sentiment is the same in both, but ‘95’s longer list feels muddled and it makes it hard to figure out which of those items is important. ’97 keeps it focused, which makes it easier to understand the implications of the line, which is this weird intimacy Hyde has with Jekyll that Lucy wants and doesn’t get. In ’97, Hyde also adds, “Jekyll’s such a very busy man,” which again is a taunt I really like because it implies that Jekyll couldn’t make time for Lucy – which is precisely what Lucy fears – while Hyde oh so generously has. ’97 also brings us more cleanly back to the conversation about Hyde visiting Lucy, creating this lovely weird triangle between the Hyde, Jekyll, and Lucy.

In both, Hyde’s anger then flares after he reads the letter. At the core, the anger is the same: Hyde wants to possess Lucy and something is threatening that, but how we get there is different. In ’95, Hyde says, “What is it you find in him that you can’t find in me?” and follows it up with, “Your friendship with him has hurt me very deeply.” So let’s go all the way back to Lucy and Hyde’s first meeting and that line about Hyde being Lucy’s guardian language. The other reason I think that guardian angel is meant to be sincere is because of this moment right here. Right now, Hyde is genuinely hurt. At various points in the show, Jekyll is envious of Hyde, but this is the first time Hyde is envious of Jekyll. For a moment, he is genuinely vulnerable. Again, I don’t like this characterization, but that’s what’s happening. In ’95, as Hyde accuses Lucy of hurting him, he tears up the letter and throws little pieces at her, which emphasizes his smallness and instability. In comparison, in ’97, Hyde gets angry because the letter tells Lucy to run away. However, he isn’t threatened by this and is not vulnerable. In ’97, Lucy lunges for the letter, and Hyde doesn’t even flinch. He simply leans forward and crumples the letter up; clearly, he is not afraid of her, he is not afraid of Jekyll. His following line, “Now you weren’t planning on leaving the city without saying goodbye, were you Lucy?” is not a question. It is a statement that he will not let her leave.

At this point, both versions build in tension as Hyde sings a reprise of “Sympathy, Tenderness,” which Lucy first sang when Jekyll was tending for the wound Hyde gave her. This is another really stellar example of Hyde throwing the sweetness of Jekyll and Lucy’s relationship back into their faces, reversing the caring nature of their relationship to the point that it becomes the lead-up to him killing her. This moment is slower in ’95. The tension peaks as he stabs her, but then the band drops out, leaving the piano to play an almost lullaby version of “Sympathy, Tenderness” and it becomes a moment of mocking tenderness as Lucy crawls from the bed, and Hyde brings her back up into his lap, cradling her as he slits her throat. In ’97 it’s just pure escalation. He stabs her sooner and harder, and when she tumbles out of the bed, he yanks her onto her knees and slits her throat before kicking her body down onto the stage’s apron and running off. I think I can go either way on this escalation. I like the overall escalation in ’97 better, but Hyde’s tenderness in ’95 is real scary.

We are not, however, quite done with this scene. This is the end of the scene in ’97, but not in ’95. In ’95 the scene is still going, and one more thing happens. This is absolutely the wildest difference between the two shows: After killing Lucy, Hyde frantically washes his hands in a very Lady MacBeth out-out-damn spot kind of way. He starts to lose control of the body and takes it as an opportunity to hurt Jekyll, saying, “Come on out, Henry. Take a look,” at which point Jekyll is confronted by Lucy’s corpse. In the pursuing chaos of music and Jekyll’s screams, we move back to Jekyll’s lab, which he is absolutely wrecking.

Similar to Hyde and Lucy’s first meeting, this has pacing issues because it’s another pause, but it also feels so completely and entirely necessary. In ’97 Jekyll basically gets away with never confronting what he’s done, and having to see Lucy’s dead body forces him to confront face-to-face the damage he’s done. The switch from Hyde to Jekyll’s perspective is also just really devastating. It’s a wild move that I had not even considered before seeing the ‘95 version, and I love it. It makes it horribly clear what Jekyll has done and tips Jekyll over the edge, making it clear in a way that isn’t present in ‘97 that Jekyll has lost control. I am really pleased that they brought this back in ’13, though it doesn’t work as well because ’13 Jekyll is in general more depressed than volatile, so it doesn’t have the explosive effect that it has in ’95.

The last two scenes to consider are “Confrontation” and the wedding. “Confrontation” in ’97 is better, no questions asked. In ’95, Hyde’s part of the song is done in voice-over, which I hate a lot. There are attempts in almost all of the versions to use voice-over at various points and I hate all of them. But for this scene in particular, the entire point of this show is that this is happening to one person. Hyde is not a separate entity, and that is what makes his presence scary. Doing Hyde’s part of the song in voice-over makes him separate from Jekyll, and it’s a bad terrible awful choice.

“Confrontation” in ’97 is great. Cuccioli sings Jekyll with his right side to the audience and turns to sing Hyde’s part with his left to the audience. I think the blocking of it is really clever and it emphasizes how Jekyll is struggling to control himself, not to mention it’s impressive to watch. The simple staging and spotlight also puts a laser focus on Jekyll, allowing him to reach the fever pitch that is the climax of the show.

Because of Jekyll’s moment with Lucy’s body in ‘95, everything does amp up a little more in ‘95, which I like, but it makes the hard cut to the wedding even more jarring than it already is. There is, generally, across the board, a serious lack of falling action. Lucy’s death and “Confrontation” are the climax, and after that all we have left is the wedding. The wedding does eventually reach an appropriate pitch, but the hard cut to happy-go-lucky wedding is weird, especially because we haven’t been given a lot of reason to believe that Jekyll either 1) believes he has Hyde under control, or 2) is desperate enough to be fooling himself.There is some dialogue in some versions to the effect that he thinks he has this under control, although the ’94 recording is the only one where it’s said explicitly and often enough to really catch it. But, the main difference between ’95 and ’97 is how Jekyll dies. In ’95, Utterson shoots him, and in ’97 Jekyll runs himself through with Utterson’s sword after Utterson fails to do so. I like ’97 better because it’s just more interesting if it’s Jekyll who makes the decision. Since Jekyll is our main character, I’m fundamentally more interested in the question, Will Jekyll kill himself? than, Will Utterson kill Jekyll?

And that’s the show! I like both ’95 and ’97, for different reasons. ’95 is more complicated, occasionally too complicated, but it has some show-stopper moments that aren’t present in ’97.’97 is just a lot smoother overall, and generally a better show for the medium it’s working in. The basic shape of the show as it’s present in ’97 is better by 2001 – they’ve added in some necessary clarification and a little more doubt to Jekyll’s character – but I hate David Hasselhoff as Jekyll, so I’ll take ‘97. And then there’s ’13, which is terrible and I hate all of its choices. Mostly I just really like the cast of ’95 and ’97 way better than all the other versions. At the end of the day I’m glad the two versions exist and that I got the chance to see them and spend several months obsessing over them when I should have been focusing on getting a Master’s degree.

Jekyll & Hyde: The Musical ’95 vs. ’97: Part II

As a brief reminder, Jekyll has gone to visit the Red Rat, where he meets a Lucy, a sex worker there.

After Lucy sings her opening songs, Jekyll and Lucy meet. I found a description of the show that said Jekyll and Lucy are fascinated with each other, which I’ll admit I don’t really see in any of the shows I’ve watched, although I like the chemistry the most in ’95 because they seem to find each other pretty entertaining and unusual compared to who they usually hang out with. In both, Lucy inspires Jekyll to perform his good-and-evil experiment on himself. The framing of this makes more sense in ’95. In ’95, Lucy’s pimp calls her over and when Jekyll asks if he can help, she says, “Some fires you have to walk through by yourself,” and I understand how this translates into his decision. In ’97 he says her “Good and Evil” song inspired him because it’s about making choices, but that kind of implies he either fundamentally didn’t understand the song or he thinks that doing the experiment is the evil choice? Since the song is all about choosing evil over good? I know why in ’97 they moved Lucy’s conversation with her pimp to before her conversation with Jekyll and why it’s predicated on him hitting her, instead of him just calling her over: it’s all about making the show snappier and putting the problems up front in ‘97. But that means the writer had to find another lightbulb moment for Jekyll, and I don’t think the song “Good and Evil” makes sense. So I guess I lean toward the ’95 version here, with the exception of that distracting running gag about innuendos, but otherwise the meeting is relatively similar between the two shows.

From there, Jekyll goes home to perform the experiment on himself and transforms into Hyde. It’s pretty similar in ’95 and ’97 – although there’s more physical movement from Jekyll in ’97 that I think really emphasizes the importance of this moment. But I feel compelled to talk about ’13 here because this is my favorite example of why ‘13’s staging sucks. In ’13, the scene is a completely bonkers mad scientist sequence with a minimal lab set that’s mostly made up of ridiculous Disney-esque, huge, glowing test tubes, as compared to the much more detailed and atmospheric labs of ’95 and ’97. In ’13, Jekyll then hooks himself up to plastic tubing and does the entire transformation in what looks like an electric chair, which is both sillier and more boring because it completely cuts off his range of motion, so he just sits there instead of writhing on the floor. It’s corny and somehow more over-the-top than ’95 and ’97, and I hate it.

Anyway. This leads us to the next big change. In ‘97, Hyde sings “Alive” and then we jump forward several weeks as his friends discuss his disappearance from society and growing obsession with his work, leaving us to use our imaginations to fill in the blank of what Hyde’s been up to. In ‘95, after he sings “Alive,” he makes his way back to the Red Rat in search of Lucy, and then sings “Alive” again. The meeting between Lucy and Hyde is added back in ’13, but it’s much shorter.

I am torn about this decision in the exact same way I am torn about Lucy’s initial characterization. On the one hand, including Lucy and Hyde’s meeting has pacing issues and it requires Hyde to ultimately sing “Alive” three times, which is too many. It also means that instead of moving from the climactic transformation to his friends’ growing concern, there’s a large pause in momentum as Hyde goes to meet Lucy. It also feels like it’s setting up an arc between them, where they’ll meet several times, but we don’t see them together again until “Dangerous Game” near the end. Because the scene ends with Lucy running away from Hyde, it also begs the question of how he ultimately got his hands on her if she’s successfully turned him down without, seemingly, any consequences from the brothel or her pimp. On the other hand, the meeting between Jekyll and Lucy begs for a comparative moment with Hyde, and it’s weird that it doesn’t happen in ‘97. Technically, at the end of “Alive” in ’97, Lucy appears onstage and Hyde grabs her, so the show was aware of the problem, but you don’t really get to see the contrast.

The first time I watched Lucy and Hyde’s meeting in ‘95, I hated it, but, again, I think I’ve talked myself around. The first thing we have to do is ask: Why is Hyde here? Is he here because of Jekyll or Lucy? If he’s here for Jekyll, is it to taunt Jekyll or create distance between him and Jekyll? If he’s here for Lucy is it just to have sex with her or is it because he thinks he can connect with her like Jekyll did? I think the reason this scene is so confusing is because it is all of these things. So let’s work through them.

Hyde returns to the Red Rat, calling for champagne and being generally intimidating. He bribes his way in with 50 guineas and approaches Lucy. He says Lucy looks like she could use a good friend. One of my favorite moves with Hyde’s character is when he takes something from a conversation between Jekyll and Lucy and throws it in their faces, because it is absolutely devastating every single time he does it. Specifically, it’s devastating because the way he changes the intended meaning of the dialogue is both cruel and clever. It also makes it clear how dangerous he is because he seems to be the only one who knows everything that’s happening. Lucy of course doesn’t know what Jekyll’s done and while Jekyll doesn’t retain all of Hyde’s memories, Hyde seems to retain all of Jekyll’s. Hyde is basically holding all the cards. By ’97 there are very few of these lines from Hyde, but this scene in ‘95 has several. This line about being a friend is a call-back to when Jekyll offered his friendship to Lucy, and I love it because Hyde has so clearly taken Jekyll’s genuine intentions and completely ground them into the dirt. Most of these call-back statements are directed at Lucy, but given her frequent lack of response, I get the impression that he’s mostly taunting Jekyll. So this line is great and I love it. The problem is that we then very rapidly switch motivations.

Hyde then says that after tonight Lucy will never forget him, which still feels directed at Jekyll – he will get to have what Jekyll doesn’t. But he follows it up by claiming he’ll be Lucy’s guardian angel and guide to salvation. I have watched this moment so many times, and it’s still jarring. It’s obviously in contrast to Jekyll’s offer for help, and my instinct is to read it as sarcastic, that he’ll make her life hell, because it fits better with the lines around it. Specifically, he follows this up with, “A toast to romance, to those unafraid of taking a chance.” This is another call-back I really love. When Jekyll and Lucy met, Jekyll told her he was looking for someone for his experiment, someone unafraid to take a chance. As I mentioned, Lucy takes this as innuendo and sings, “Here’s to romance, to those unafraid of taking a chance.” Jekyll then realizes his mistake and leaves. So Jekyll has formed his connection with Lucy by turning their relationship into one of friendship and respect. Then Hyde comes back and throws it in both of their faces. He sees their potential romance, and he is here to get to it first and replace it with a far uglier romance.

Okay, great, but the problem is that his delivery when he says he’ll be her guardian angel is absolutely sincere. I struggle with this because he isn’t someone who helps people, and he is very aware of that. The only way I can make sense of this is if he believes that he and Lucy will connect as partners in crime, that she really didn’t like Jekyll all that much and will choose him (evil) over Jekyll (good). That isn’t, of course, what ultimately happens. Part of the reason I struggle with this is that Hyde has a terrifying view of people, but he is also very, very savvy. He has a clear sense of himself and a clear sense of what other people think of him. But this moment introduces the possibility that he has misunderstood Lucy, which is a really brief blip of a characterization that we get basically nowhere else except during Lucy’s murder. So I think what this moment is trying to do is introduce Lucy as a blind spot for Hyde. He believes he loves her, and that she will love him back, and is surprised when this doesn’t happen.

I do have to thank ’13 for one thing here. ’13 simplifies this scene, focusing on Hyde’s violent possessiveness. Hyde’s delivery of the line about guardian angels in ’13 is absolutely sarcastic and it made it a lot easier to figure out what Cuccioli was doing in comparison. Cuccioli’s Hyde is, again, more complicated. I’m ultimately not sure what would have to be changed to make this scene work. ’13 does actually do the work of simplifying and streamlining Hyde’s violent possessiveness towards Lucy, and I hate it, so I don’t know. I don’t know what to do with this scene. The most I can say is that while ’95 is really messy, I do think all the characterizations they’re trying to fit in are really fascinating.

The other thing ’13 adds is that we see Hyde give Lucy the wound that she’ll go to Jekyll for later, which is now my favorite example of tell-over-show because it completely ruins the later shock of her wound.

The rest of the scene in ’95 is pretty straightforward. In response to Lucy’s continued sarcasm, Hyde grabs her hair, and says, “I am the man, mark my words well, with whom you’ll share heaven or hell.” Either this is just a continuation of the violent possessiveness he’s clearly been building up to, or it’s that plus anger at being turned down when he assumed Lucy would choose him over Jekyll. Lucy is not impressed or intimidated, and goes on to reject his money and run off. Again, this makes it unclear how he got ahold of her later and it completely shuts down her supposed attraction to him in “Dangerous Game,” so this does create some logistical problems.

Quick wrap-up on this scene and then I’ll talk about Jekyll and Lucy’s next meeting in the next post. In ’95, the bouncer then attempts to kick Hyde out, and Hyde beats up most of the den. As he begins his second reprise of “Alive,” he sings “Predators leave for the prey the pursue. This time the predator’s me!” and gestures at Lucy as she runs off, a move that gives the song just a little more intention than it has in ‘97. As I said, I like the meeting, generally, but, the pacing and logistical issues persist, so I guess pick your poison, as long as your poison isn’t the ’13 version.

Jekyll & Hyde: The Musical ’95 vs. ’97: Part I

Jekyll & Hyde: The Musical opened in 1990 in Houston, the original concept album recorded four years later in 1994 with Anthony Warlow. It ran off-Broadway in 1995 before premiering on Broadway in 1997 with Robert Cuccioli before he was replaced by David Hasselhoff, who performed until 2001. There were a slew of touring performances all the way up to 2017, but I am not going down that rabbit hole. The show briefly revived on Broadway in 2013 with Constantine Maroulis, but closed early.

That is a lot of names. You do not need to know them all. Robert Cuccioli is the only one we care about, and also the only one we like.

When I first wrote this, I had only seen the recording of the pre-Broadway run in ‘95 and the Broadway premiere in ’97, and those are the two I’ll be talking about. But the other versions are worth mentioning because they often clarify what is and isn’t happening in ’95 and ‘97. Also I hate the 2013 version and I want to gripe about it. So here are the materials I’m working with: in addition to the ’95 and ’97 recordings, there’s the ’94 album, two official 2001 recordings, one with David Hasselhoff and one with the understudy Rob Evan, and a recording of the show in 2013. At no point was this show not changing. The concept recording in ’94 is pretty different from the run in ’95, which in turn is different from ’97, and even though ’97 and 2001 are fairly similar, they were still tweaking things in 2001. In fact, somewhere between ’97 and 2001 they seem to have started reverting back to the pre-Broadway run. Generally speaking, changes pre-’97 are characterized by cutting for pacing and post-’97 trends toward addition in service of complicating/clarifying Jekyll. (The staging and music is also often very different and I’ll talk about that occasionally, but I am a) not super qualified to talk about them and b) I am desperately trying not to devolve into pure, unadulterated tangents.)

To be more specific, the changes leading up to the Broadway run are made in the service of pacing and scrubbing out the bawdier parts. While this does clarify some of the muddier characterizations and make the story snappier – something it sorely needed – it does so at the expense of depth and it occasionally obscures motivation. Jekyll pre-Broadway is a lot more reflective and generally conflicted about his choices. In ’97, Jekyll almost never questions the fact that he’s responsible for the deaths of like 5 people. A lot of things also make more sense in the ’97 Broadway run if you go back and watch the earlier version. Like, why does Emma sing “Emma’s Reasons” to this man Simon? Who is Simon? Turns out in ’94 he had a whole little villain arc because he was going to marry Emma. And that’s also why he gets the dramatic positioning of being the last one Hyde kills. By ’13, this is entirely gone since they’ve cut Emma’s song and Hyde doesn’t even kill Simon. But we’re talking about ’97. By cutting the bawdier elements, the show also loses some of its fun genre-pieces, and the attempt to make it more family-friendly I think sands off the edges. It also waters down Lucy’s character because she is at the heart of a lot of those genre-pieces, and removing them makes her less jaded and more naive. That being said, I think many of these changes were also made because while, in theory, I like a more complicated Jekyll and a more gothic-savvy show, where those elements still exist in ’95, they don’t always work, frequently because there is not enough time to explore them in a 2-hour musical.

I was also very prepared to defend ’97 as superior to ’95 when I first wrote this because I think the pacing is a lot better and, like I said, the things I like in theory often didn’t pan out on the stage. But ’97 did cut some killer moments and I wish there was a version of this show that made Jekyll’s complexity and the genre-pieces work.

A quick note on the cast: Robert Cuccilio plays Jekyll in both ’95 and ’97, so like I said, for my purposes he’s the only one we care about. Linda Eder also plays Lucy in both. In an attempt to maintain some semblance of focus, I’m mostly going to talk about the changes to Jekyll and Lucy, and the story around them. And with that, here we go!

In both versions, Henry Jekyll is driven to discover a way to separate the good and evil in humanity after his father is put in an insane asylum. Jekyll believes doing so will help treat people like his father. He then proposes his plan to the Board of Governors, who turn it down. In ‘97 he then basically never mentions this motivation again. His fiancé Emma, Lisa in ‘95, is also in this show but way less than I remember and also she’s not really important for my purposes.

In ‘97, when Utterson, Jekyll’s friend and lawyer, brings Jekyll to the brothel the Red Rat (it’s called something else in ’95 that I can’t catch), Jekyll asks, “Why on earth have you brought me here?” to which Utterson responds, “You need the relaxation.” In ‘95, it’s less clear why they’re there, but Jekyll doesn’t have any hesitations about it, and he’s possibly the one who suggested it. (In ’13, they flip it and it’s Utterson who protests and Jekyll who insists they go in, because Utterson has failed to throw him a bachelor party. ’13 Jekyll is then promptly flabbergasted when Lucy flirts with him, and I’m not sure what he expected would happen at a brothel?) The change from ’95 to ’97 is part of the larger trend of scrubbing Jekyll of the few questionable qualities he has in ‘95. There are places where I don’t like this scrubbing, but in this instance I don’t think that frequenting brothels really adds anything to his character and it makes some of his later charges against the Board of Governs seem pretty poorly conceived. I also personally think that Jekyll being mildly uncomfortable at the brothel, rather than just being there, is more interesting, especially as he negotiates his interaction with Lucy. The discomfort also creates a wider gap between him and Hyde that I think clarifies the character.

There’s also a conversation on the way to the brothel between Jekyll and Utterson that is cut from ’97. In ’95, Utterson says, “Oh, Henry, how can you contend that only an evil man is free?” Jekyll responds, “’Cause it’s true. John, we all have dark impulses within us, you know that. But we follow society’s rules. The truly evil mind doesn’t, so he’s free. As an animal is free to do exactly as he wants when he wants with no restrictions of any kind.” Utterson then goes on to say that he believes humans are fundamentally good and Jekyll disagrees. This conversation comes up a few times, and while, again, it adds complexity, I don’t really trust this show to have philosophical conversations that make any sense. The attempt to justify and complicate Jekyll’s theory by positing that evil people are free – the phrasing and Jekyll’s delivery implying no small amount of envy – is…weird. It goes against his whole point, which is that his project will save mental patients, not free up an overly rigid society. In 2001 they have kind of fixed this. This moment isn’t added back in, but there are others that suggest Jekyll is envious of Hyde’s freedom, and his growing doubt highlights how he is losing sight of his original purpose. But to have Jekyll already on board with Hyde’s philosophy means nothing changes, Jekyll just gets more violent. While there is a story there, it’s not this story. This story works better if he is either basically good (’97) or has yet to admit to himself that he wanted to be Hyde a little too much (2001).

The one place this idea of freedom does exist throughout all the shows is when Hyde first appears, describing himself as free, and then singing in “Alive” that “animals trapped behind bars in the zoo need to run rampant and free.” Without the earlier conversation this is more of an expression of Hyde’s headspace, a violence so chaotic that it’s lost all sense of empathy or connection with other people. In ’95 that’s still true, but it also suggests praise for, or at least envy of, his behavior, which again works a lot better if Jekyll’s doubt comes after this moment, rather than him already being on Hyde’s side.

Jekyll’s philosophical conversation with Utterson about good and evil in ‘95 also leads to a running gag at the brothel that feels very out of character for Jekyll, as it positions him as both naïve and a little silly. Jekyll describes one of the prostitutes as “unfettered, unencumbered, unchained” – the delivery of which gives a real uncomfortable male-doctor-describes-female-patient-like-an-objective vibe – and then asks if she’s free in a tone of voice that I can only describe as when the Fool or Clown character sets up an obvious joke. It’s very distracting. She responds, “Not free, your lordship. But cheap enough for the likes of you.” I don’t think the set-up to her punchline works, again Jekyll doesn’t feel that naïve, and I don’t understand why he continues to be oblivious when he then suggests one of the women might volunteer for his experiment, which the woman promptly interprets as sexual. (If you like this exchange, which I don’t, they have actually fixed it in ’13. The sexual innuendo is still there, but Jekyll isn’t quite so oblivious to it.) It works even less the second time in ’95 when he asks Lucy if she wants to participate in an experiment. First, it’s really sleazy that he asks her, given the power dynamic – something ’97 points out when Utterson misinterprets Jekyll as planning on using Lucy and Jekyll responds, “Good heavens, John, you really think I’m such an unprincipled character?” – Second, it’s already been established that any use of “experiment” at the Red Rat will be read as innuendo, which is what happens, and it feels weird enough that Jekyll didn’t anticipate it the first time, let alone the second. In ‘97, when Jekyll gives Lucy his card in case she needs a friend, he clarifies that he really means it like that, as just a friend, a change that makes him feel more intentional about his relationship with Lucy instead of being the butt of a joke.

So let’s talk about Lucy. Okay. So. While there are significant differences in Lucy’s characterization between the shows, fundamentally, at her core, Lucy is the same. In both shows, Lucy is the prostitute with a heart of gold, a characterization that I will briefly argue is inherently flawed and cannot be overcome despite Eder’s monumental efforts to do so. The problem with the prostitute with a heart of gold is that she is inherently a victim of circumstance. She is someone who ‘deserves better’ but for unclear reasons cannot escape her current predicament, and simply waits for the right rich white man to save her. I don’t think it’s an interesting character and it demonizes sex workers and sex work in general. It’s a problematic trope and it puts a lot of breaks on Lucy’s range. It also means that no matter how I twist it, Lucy’s arc is one where her salvation is dependent on a man. However, as I said, Eder is putting her all into it and the character she has imagined is a lot better than the script she’s been given, so we’ll give her her fare do.

In ‘95, Lucy is introduced in a floor show with “Bring on the Men,” an introduction that doesn’t so much establish her love for the job as make her fairly world-weary and jaded. She’s clearly determined to do her job well and knows how to have fun, but I don’t get the impression that she really enjoys it. Rather, she’s done this long enough to be very aware of her standing in the world and has made herself powerful by putting up a lot of walls – we literally see her as the performer before we see her as the person. When I first watched this, I saw her initial characterization as clashing with her later starry-eyed affection for Jekyll, but I have since talked myself around. Yes, she’s got a lot of walls, but her thematic statement is: “A girl alone, all on her own must try to have a heart of stone. So I try not to make it known my yearning.” Her arc, then, is one of opening up and being vulnerable with Jekyll. I don’t want to read her as the cold, damaged woman who needs to open up to a man – doing so does, in fact, get her killed – so the best I can do is acknowledge the complexity that Eder brings, imagining Lucy as someone who has made her choices and holds her own through a combination of dark humor and apathy. Eder does ultimately do a really fantastic job expressing both the Lucy who is over your nonsense and the Lucy who is learning how to plan for the future again.

In ‘97, Lucy is a waif. Again, Eder doesn’t want her to be a waif and gives her a lot of savvy and humor, but the script is really working against her. She’s first introduced backstage after arriving late because she’s been listening to speeches of some sort in Hyde Park. She says it’s because she wants to learn, a change that I think is meant to give her more agency, but it isn’t followed up on and feels like an addition made by someone who doesn’t understand how to empower a female character. She then sings “No One Knows Who I Am” to her fellow performers. As the title of her first song implies, she is misunderstood, lost, and unhappy, a bit waifish, if you will. The comradery with her fellow performers is nice and given more space than in ‘95, and it does allow for a cool moment where she sings, “Nobody knows, not even you,” and points to the audience. I don’t think the implication that the audience misinterprets her quite works because, she’s ultimately just who you think she is, but I like the sentiment. “No One Knows Who I Am” is also in ’95, but it comes much later. In ’97, we start with the knowledge that Lucy is unhappy, vulnerable, and looking for a way out. In general, she feels younger, like she hasn’t had the time to get jaded. We also see her as a person before we see her as a performer, unlike in ’95, and so that vulnerability remains. This simplifies Lucy, just as Jekyll is simplified in ’97, so while her arc is still one of increasing hope, it doesn’t require her to overcome as much.

There is also, of course, option 3, which is the ’13 version. “Bring on the Men” is swapped out for “Good and Evil” in ’97, but it’s brought back in ’13. The musical arrangement in ’13 is terrible, but Lucy seems a lot more gung-ho about her job, implying that she’s more the type to throw herself into things, even while aware of her own reservations, and this does pretty cleanly transition into her throwing herself into the hope that Jekyll will save her.

As I said, “Bring on the Men” is swapped out for “Good and Evil” in ‘97, and while it attempts to reinstate some of Lucy’s jaded nature, it’s overpowered by Lucy’s introduction in “No One Knows Who I Am,” and the fact that at the end of the song her pimp immediately slaps her, causing Jekyll to run to her aid. “Bring on the Men” is the most prominent of the gothic genre-pieces that gets cut, and I do like “Good and Evil” better as a thematic statement, but I have been talked into respecting “Bring on the Men” as injecting some necessary fun and gothic style. Still, as a thematic statement, “Good and Evil” allows Lucy to be part of the show’s larger conversation about good vs. evil. Specifically, she understands wickedness in a way that Jekyll fundamentally does not. I just wish Lucy got the chance to make this case to Jekyll because it seems like a piece of the conversation that he at no point grasps.

So let’s do a quick warp up and end here for the moment. I find myself increasingly coming down on the side of liking the added complexity of ’95, and also increasingly understanding why it was cut. I like the complexity a lot, but I’ve really had to put in the work to get it make sense, and as a project that is conceived as a live musical that you watch once all the way through, I understand the desire for a story that reads more smoothly. I also think that even as a recording that I can now watch repeatedly and in pieces, the transitions between motivations within scenes and the changes in characters over the course of the show are often not given enough space to follow. This is true in Lucy’s characterization, and it is really, really true in later scenes. So I’ll say that as a person who is currently writing this comparison, I love the complexity in ’95 and I love that, with time, I can make it work. As someone watching it through once and mostly wants to enjoy it as a clean story, ’97 is way better.

Rachel Swirsky: Reversal

My favorite line of prose from Rachel Swirsky appears in her short story Tea Time: “You might as well say that falling silent is the same as silently falling.” Tea Time is about the Mad Hatter and the March Hare, who fall into a love affair while caught in a loop of time, only for the love affair to slowly break down as the loop of time ends. Interspersed throughout the story are short lyrical asides. One such aside begins as such, “You may think it’s fair to conclude that since the hatter loves his hare, it’s clear that the hare loves his hatter. You are mistaken. It’s not the same thing a bit!”

Oh, woe! So it would seem that the hare doesn’t quite return the hatter’s love. Or at least not in the same way. These lyrical reversals appear several times throughout the story. Here is one set:

You might as well say that to lose what you love is the same as to love what you lose.

You might as well say that we meet then we part is the same as we part then we meet.

You might as well say that I’m undone by love is the same as my love is undone.

Other than simply being gorgeous, these reversals serve as lyrical expressions and metaphors for the hare and hatter’s relationship. Each phrase is a repetition of itself, but also a reversal, so that the opposites stand in contrast and comparison. Each sentence is a small moment of disintegration as the phrase turns itself on its head, just as the hare and hatter are being turned on their heads.

The three sentences asks us to read them together, since each uses the same structure: “You might as well say that _________ is the same as _________.” The repetition of sentence structure creates uniformity of tone and allows phrases to build on each other. So let’s take a closer look at the phrases themselves.

We begin with, “You might as well say that to lose what you love is the same as to love what you lose.” The two key ideas are ‘to lose what you love’ and ‘to love what you lose.’  This begs the question, if the hatter loses the hare (what he loves) does that mean he loves the hare (what he lost)? In other words, does the hatter only love the hare after he lost him? Would the hatter be unable to love the hare if he had not lost him? Or are they unrelated and once the hare is lost, the hatter will no longer love him? Very quickly we find ourselves in a loop, unable to distinguish whether love or loss came first, which is exactly where the hare and hatter have found themselves.

The next sentence is, “You might as well say that we meet then we part is the same as we part then we meet.” The key phrases are ‘we meet then we part’ and ‘we part then we meet.’ The dichotomy is clearer here. The space between meeting and parting is very different than the space between parting and meeting. It’s the difference between being together and being apart. But putting them side by side asks us not to just compare how they are different but how they are the same. Perhaps the time spent together is beginning to be gloomy and sad, as the two miss each other even though they are together. Maybe the hatter longs to meet again, to have a happy reunion in the midst of a sad togetherness.

Now let’s layer meeting and parting back on loving and losing. If the hatter parts with the hare, losing him, will they meet again? Does the hatter’s love mean they are doomed to part? Or destined to meet?? Is losing what you love like meeting or parting? Is loving like meeting or parting? You might also express this in images: the hatter watching the hare leave; the hatter waiting for the hare to return; the hatter meeting the hare, who he is already losing. Parting is, after all, losing. And, you could argue, meeting is loving – a burst of love and joy. From this we can see that much of the hatter and the hare’s love and loss is mixed up in the fact that they have met and, being stuck in time, are unable to part. But parting is inevitable and the hatter fears that, just as he fears the inevitable loss of love.

Then the final sentence, “You might as well say that I’m undone by love is the same as my love is undone.” They key phrases are ‘I’m undone by love’ and ‘my love is undone.’ Again, some questions: if the hatter is undone by love, flung into madness or a loop of time or emotionally wrought by a doomed love affair, does that mean his love will ultimately fail? Is the hatter’s love fated to fail? Was the undoing of his love what undid him? I would say the answer to this last especially, is yes.

When the hatter and the hare ultimately part, when they lose each other, when the loop of time ends, the hatter returns to madness and is undone. Perhaps it was inevitable, as parting and losing are inevitable. Or perhaps it was the hatter’s preoccupation with loving and losing and meeting and parting that undid his love. Perhaps he undid himself. At this point in the story, we don’t know that the hatter and the hare’s love will fail, but these sentences foreshadow that inevitable loss, especially when we consider that every single one of these sentences is a callback to the first reversal, “You may think it’s fair to conclude that since the hatter loves his hare, it’s clear that the hare loves his hatter. You are mistaken. It’s not the same thing a bit!” So each of these sentences is a reminder that the hare doesn’t love the hatter.

There’s another aside comprised of the same types of sentences, which you may explore on your own. But I want to talk about the final reversal, “You might as well say that falling silent is the same as silently falling.” At the end of the story, the hatter and hare’s relationship ends. This sentence expresses a beautiful image of the two characters falling silent and then expresses a very physical representation of the gut-wrenching loss in the phrase ‘silently falling.’ And (three for the price of one!) it expresses the moment when the hatter finds himself falling – into despair, into madness, into infinity.

If you still haven’t read Tea Time, I highly recommend it. It’s a touch earthy, if that’s not to your taste. But it’s absolutely beautiful and I love the way Swirsky uses repeated sentence structures here and elsewhere to create rhythms and themes.

Suspense and Backstory in the Pirates of the Caribbean

We Pillage, We Plunder, We Rifle, and Loot

Oooo boy is there a lot of information in this movie. But each piece of information is simple, straightforward, and always pays off. Plus we have Will and Elizabeth to be baffled and confused so the other characters can tell the audience what everyone else already knows. Most importantly though, the backstory is always used to build suspense.

But I Have Seen a Ship with Black Sails

Mullroy and Murtogg – the comic relief British soldiers – provide the simple setup (or planting :3) for the Black Pearl: It’s an evil, haunted ship crewed by the damned. Boom! One sentence! The conversation doesn’t feel like an info dump because, well, it actually sounds like two old friends arguing, and it makes us curious – is the Pearl actually haunted? How is it haunted? What’s going on here?

When the Pearl shows up in Port Royal, the man in the jail cell next to Jack Sparrow hands out the reminder: The Pearl leaves no survivors. During the battle there are two visual hints that something’s off. A pirate goes down when Will throws an axe into his back, but later the pirate reappears (Will looks confused so we know something’s up). Several pirates find Jack in his cell and when one of them grabs Jack by the throat, his hand turns to bone. Jack even says, “So there is a curse. That’s interesting.” Whaaaaaat? Curiosity peaked. (This is a mini-payoff, btw.)

The mystery of the Pearl is our point of tension for the first half an hour of the movie. But its backstory is also integral to the plot, so it can’t be dragged on too long. Peak interest comes at about the 45 minute mark when Barbossa tells Elizabeth about the curse and the pirate gold.* The mystery of the Pearl is payed off in a satisfying way and will now provide suspense as a point of danger to our heroes. At this point our attention has also been turned to Will’s last name and that becomes our point of tension and suspense.**

*Barbossa mentions that the moonlight shows them for what they really are: namely skeletons. This is set-up visually by the many shots of the moon being covered and exposed by clouds.

**In addition, Jack’s relationship to the Pearl has been woven into the opening. He knows its guns, he knows the crew and calls them mutineers, and he’s the first person to bring up the Pearl in the movie. But! Jack’s backstory has only been mentioned briefly because the opening would be too cluttered with that information and we don’t need it yet. Instead Gibbs explains it about an hour in.

Named for your Father, Eh?

I talked about Will Turner’s arc in my first Pirates post (now lost unfortunately), so here I’ll just cover the beats that emphasize the importance of the name Turner.

When Elizabeth gives her surname as Turner (nicely setup when her maid suggests the pirates are here to kidnap her aka the governor’s daughter), the moment has weight because Barbossa repeats the name to his crew and one of the pirates gives the name ‘Bootstrap.’ Who is Bootstrap?

When Will later asks Jack to help him, Jack only agrees when he learns Will’s name – as Will himself points out later. Again we linger a moment and Jack asks if Will’s named for his father. (This is also when Will explains that he can open the cell with the proper leverage – since Will is later Jack’s leverage this is a bit of a clunky metaphor, but it does manage to come off naturally in the film, so I’ll give it a pass.)

Like the backstory of the Pearl, the mystery of Will’s ancestry isn’t the point of the story, so the important bits are explained at about the 50 minute mark, just 5-10 minutes after it’s first mentioned. But! There’s still tension because we don’t know why Jack wants Turner.

In the next scene we learn Jack wants Will for leverage so that Barbossa will give him the Pearl. This must be convincing because a very dubious Gibbs buys into it. But why does Barbossa want Will? The scene after that Barbossa explains to Elizabeth that they need Turner blood to break their curse – plus the full backstory of how the Pearl and its crew got cursed.

At this point, about an hour in, pretty much all of our questions are answered. The suspense is now no longer based on mystery, but Jack’s constant backstabbing and the danger to Elizabeth and Will.

Drink up me ‘earties, yo ho!

Through-lines in the Pirates of the Caribbean

And Really Bad Eggs

There are so many through-lines in Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl. The fact that every single one of them pays off and doesn’t feel contrived is stupid. (Everything from Gibbs’ leather flask being loaded into a canon only for Jack to find it later to Mullroy and Murtogg’s banter about whether Jack is telling the truth, which is reference a magic number of 3 times, to Elizabeth giving her name as Turner, which of course allows for the mistaken identities, but is also used to develop her and Will’s romance when he asks her why she used his name, suggesting that she’s fond of the idea of having his surname *gasp* *pant*.) I’ve talked about the big suspense-building plots – like the Black Pearl’s curse. These are smaller, you know, apple-sized instead of ship-sized

No Additional Shots Nor Powder

Balancing your protagonist’s physical resources and skill against your antagonist’s physical resources and skills is crazy difficult. At the beginning your protagonist should be at a disadvantage so at the end it feels like their victory is hard-won. Often this victory is with a final deus ex machina/power move, like the appearance of a new weapon in Pacific Rim, or by the protagonist learning to hit harder, like in the final fight between Harry Potter and Voldemort in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows.

Another option is to straight-up give the protagonist less weapons. Often this comes in the form of a few dozen heroes against a million enemies à la most Avengers movies. But once you get past like 50 the number’s are really too big for us to comprehend. This is good for scale, but not for detail and intimacy. When Butch and Sundance face off against an entire army in Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid we have a solid sense of the numbers: two men against a few dozen soldiers. As very briefly mentioned in Mikey’s video about Mad Max: Fury Road, this is all the more powerful when the protagonist’s weapons are carefully and clearly presented to the audience so we know exactly what our heroes are working with and can watch them slowly run out of ammo.

In Pirates, after Commodore Norrington catches Jack Sparrow, he, very organically, sorts through Jack’s affects. Norrington comments on the affects and the camera deliberately lingers on each. Jack has one sword, one gun, one bullet, one compass. No additional shots nor powder. The sword of course is an unlimited resource, but almost everyone else is fighting with a gun, so that puts him at a stark disadvantage. (Now you might be asking, aren’t Will and Elizabeth are protagonists? What about them? Well their disadvantage comes mostly from them not being ruthless and chaotic enough. They’re not pirates. But ultimately while Barbossa is everyone’s antagonist, he’s really Jack’s antagonist.)

Even though Jack threatens to use his one bullet multiple times, it’s very clear he doesn’t want to. When he pulls the gun on Will at the end of their first fight, he says, “This bullet was not meant for you.” Will gives us his starry-eyed confused face so that we wonder, Who is it meant for?

From there the gun is never forgotten and has its own merry journey:

  1. Jack threatens a soldier on the Dauntless with the gun.
  2. Gibbs explains how Barbossa marooned Jack and left him with one shot and that Jack won’t use it save on one man: Barbossa.
  3. Will threatens to shoot himself with it if Barbossa doesn’t let Elizabeth go.
  4. Jack and Elizabeth are marooned with only Jack’s gun. Barbossa suggests Jack use it, but when Jack does pull it on Elizabeth after she burns the rum, it’s played as a joke because at this point we know Jack would never waste it on something like this.
  5. Jack shoots Barbossa.

Nom, Nom, Delicious Apples

It would have been so easy to muddle through Barbossa’s motivations (that all-important WANT). The screenwriter even could have left the motivation monochromatic across the whole crew: get the gold, feel stuffs again. They even could have left ‘feel stuffs’ as sex/women/wine (vaguely, of course, this is still Disney). It’s not very original, but they’re pirates. That does in fact appear to be the crew’s motivation. They paw at Elizabeth quite a bit and when Barbossa says, “You know the first thing I’m gonna do after the curse is lifted,” everyone chuckles suggestively.

But the screenwriter doesn’t do that. Instead Barbossa has a specific and deeply human desire: all he wants is to eat an apple again. It’s small, sure, but it’s powerful and creates a vulnerable crack in Barbossa’s armor.

When Elizabeth eats dinner with Barbossa, she ravenously devours the banquet, until her offers her a green apple. Unfortunately the camera-work makes it a somewhat sexual moment, but I think Geoffrey Rush means to play it as a very powerful man who is struggling not to look desperate and pathetic by the simple act of watching someone eat while knowing he can’t. Elizabeth refuses the apple and so we get a sort of refusal of his humanity.

Later what Barbossa says that suggestive, “You know the first thing I’m gonna do after the curse is lifted,” he turns to Elizabeth and adds, “eat a whole bushel of apples.” How much more interesting and telling that desire is!

Jack later picks through Barbossa’s apples and we get a quick shot of Barbossa being bitter as Jack blithely, mockingly eats the apples. Jack even offers him one, just to rub salt in the wound.

When Jack finally does shoot Barbossa, Barbossa says, “I feel…” and we see the momentary joy of him being alive and part of the world once more, only for him to realize what he feels is pain and finality as he says, “cold.” As he falls, an apple tumbles from his hand. Now, where did he get that apple? Wasn’t he just holding a gun? Or weren’t his hands empty? WHO CARES IT LOOKS COOL AS ALL GET-OUT AND WORKS ON A SYMBOLIC LEVEL. In other words, he has regained his humanity, only to lose it irrevocably (no, the other movies don’t count, stop it.)

Footnote: the bright-green apples are a great color contrast to the generally blue and red color palette.

The Blood of a Pirate

Blood is a MOTIF, if you will. Or symbolism if you won’t. The blood is both physical and symbolic and is very tied up with the imagery of the medallions and thus the imagery of a curse.

At a symbolic level blood is ancestry, specifically the idea that piracy runs in Will’s veins because of his father Bootstrap. It’s never said this way, but Will initially sees his association to Bootstrap as a curse. Bootstrap is a pirate, the thing that Will hates most. Will is branded and haunted and used because of his blood. Only when he accepts his piratical origins, reveals it to others, and then finally cuts his own hand is he able to accept his blood.

Despite, you know, pirates, the physical blood is very sparing in this movie. Which means it stands out all the more. There are four key moments with blood and they all relate to the curse.

  1. The first blood is drawn by Elizabeth when she stabs Barbossa in an attempt to escape after he’s explained the curse and threatened to kill her. The baroque image of him removing the bloody knife from his chest is ghastly and intimidating and I love it.
  2. Barbossa returns the favor when he cuts Elizabeth’s palm over the medallions, believing her blood will break the curse. There are later threats to spill all of Will’s blood to ensure the curse is broken.
  3. Jack and Will cut their palms in order to break the curse right as…
  4. Jack shoots Barbossa. Barbossa opens his shirt as blood spills from the wound over his heart. We begin with the bright, ghastly and almost unreal blood of the undead and end with a dark, spilling river of heart’s blood that is only possibly because it brings Barbossa’s life to an end.

Also just the red blood on the brusque gold medallions, it’s just such a good color.

The Code

Can we just talk about the pirate code for a sec? Just because it’s a weird contrivance that shouldn’t have worked. At a meta-level it’s a set of in-universe rules that allows the screenwriters to get around sticky situations – like why wouldn’t the pirates kill Jack/Elizabeth upon seeing them? And why would Gibbs abandon Jack? Technically this is bad screenwriting, but it works not only because everyone buys into it, but the screenwriter is absolutely not above making fun of how ridiculous the code is.

More importantly though, it ties into Elizabeth and Will’s arc. In the end this is a story about Elizabeth and Will learning to break the rules. So when Elizabeth says to Gibbs and the pirate crew, “You’re pirates. Hang the code and hang the rules. They’re more like guidelines anyway,” it’s really the culmination of her arc. And, you know, she got ‘they’re more like guidelines’ from Barbossa, so it’s an acceptance of piracy at its fullest and most volatile.

Anyway this is all to say, Guys, this is such a good movie. You should go watch it again.

Interview with a Vampire: Should you Kill People?

The second episode of Interview with the Vampire, “After the Phantoms of Your Former Self,” asks the question: “Is it okay to kill people?” Louis says no. Lestat says yes.

The question of murder in this show is also a question of food, decadence, and pleasure. The entire episode is framed by food. Daniel, the interviewer, is served countless decedent courses, each beautifully plated and introduced with a nearly incomprehensible litany of fancy terminology. The question, Is it okay to kill people? is, of course, about food as well, since human blood is the main food source of vampires and drinking blood is, or least can be, an act of pleasurable intimacy, loving or violent or both.

The episode asks the question three times. The first time, Louis has just been turned into a vampire and he and Lestat lure home the most middle-American white bread man they can find. He’s a door-to-door salesman. He has a daughter. He’s going to buy her a pony. A great deal of time is dedicated to listening to him drone on about this pony. When Louis kills the man, it is of course a botched job. It’s Louis’ first time after all. Louis struggles to pin him down and Lesat has to give instruction on the basics of drinking blood. The encounter, and our first answer to our question, is a mess. Of course, we should be especially horrified by this victim. He’s innocent. He’s doughy. He has a daughter. But it’s hard to be horrified. It’s hard to feel it. Louis is still floundering, deeply influenced by Lestat’s confidence and too ungainly to make intentional choices about it, even as he is haunted by the killing, philosophically at least. It’s hard as the audience to climb up to the high ground that Louis has reached in the present. The murder is too mundane and Louise is too distracted by other things. At the end of the murder, we don’t linger; Louis is far more concerned about seeing his family, and that’s what’s framed as important.

And as I said, it’s hard to get away from Lestat. For Lestat, this question was settled decades if not centuries ago, and his confidence is hard to resist: Of course it’s okay. It’s beautiful. It’s also necessary. While Louis flails, Lestat gives instructions like he’s telling Louis how to prepare a cutlet. Louis even briefly takes Lestat’s side in the present, asking Daniel if he considers the rabbit before he eats it, if, as an apex predator, it’s ever weighed on his conscious. While Louis violently and bloodily kills a live animal, Daniel responds by taking a bite of his own cooked rabbit.

The second time the episode asks the question seems the most straightforward. During the meal, in the present, one of Louis’ servants, a burly and chiseled white man, a stereotypical Slavic-type, sits next to Louis and holds a pleasant and banal conversation with Daniel while Louis drinks just enough of his blood to be satiated. Louis, as he says, is in perfect control. So here it is. The moral high ground. The vegetarian vampire, as Twilight dubbed it.

It is also, I think, the most uncomfortable moment in the entire episode. Daniel, who has eaten his decedent meal as the servants wrapped the end of the table in saran wrap and brought out a blood bag, who didn’t flinch and continued to eat as Louis devoured a live animal, spurting blood over the table, for the first time Daniel looks queasy. For the first time, he can’t eat. And yet this is the cleanest blood-drinking in the episode. Louis doesn’t even get any blood on his chin.

Of course we might say that no matter how much Louis is in control, it’s still uncomfortable to watch. But I don’t think that’s it. I think Daniel recognizes that there’s something wrong with this moment. The drinking of blood between Louis and Lestat in the first episode is very clearly reminiscent of sex, and while Lestat’s other victims are more characterized by violence, the pleasurable nature still hangs over them; Lestat describes the last kill in the first episode as him ‘overindulging.’ Drinking blood isn’t a perfect allegory for sex – it’s not meant to be and it shouldn’t be read that way. But what Lestat understands and Louis doesn’t is that vampires, even though they’re dead, are inherently sensual beings of pleasure. To be dead, in fact, is to be overwhelmed by your senses, by sights and sounds and smells. To drink blood is to engage in being alive, to revel in the heat and wetness of the human body. I think we’re supposed to see how clinical drinking this Slavic man’s blood is, how detached and removed. Louis does not love this man. He does not connect with this man. This is the philosophical high ground. Of course, as humans ourselves, we have to agree with Louis: It’s not okay to kill people. But this scene makes it hard to feel that, because Louis feels nothing.

The third time the episode asks the questions, back in the past again, Louis is certain. He knows this is wrong, just as it was wrong when he killed the salesman. The death is also far more visceral. The horror and grief that we didn’t get before is present now. But Lestat is also at center stage. This is Lestat’s kill, and Lestat understands pleasure. At the opera, the one place where Lestat is really, truly content, where he revels in the music, the show’s tenor is not up to Lestat’s standards. So he lures the tenor home and humiliates him, making the tenor realize how imperfect his rendition of the opera was. Over the course of the evening, Lestat slowly drains him.

Louis is and is not seduced by this. He connects with the man, experiences the dying man’s final thoughts and visions of home. He describes it lovingly, nostalgically. It is seductive, begging him to join in with Lestat. But it’s also horrifying. The man is humiliated and killed over the course of hours. It’s horrible. Of course it’s horrible. It’s not okay to kill people. But now, as viewers, it’s hard to turn and run back to Louis’ earlier detached meal. Is that really better? To live your whole life going through the motions of pleasure but never really enjoying it?

At the end of the episode, in the present day, a final dessert is served, and Louis joins Daniel in eating it. Daniel, who is perpetually grumpy, is happy for a moment. He reminisces, speaks of how he last ate this after he proposed to his wife, even smiles a little. He enjoys the meal. Louis says the dessert tastes like paste. Louis enjoys nothing. Lestat, killing the tenor, revels. He understands how to enjoy the pleasures of the flesh, and doing so requires him to connect with humans in a way that Louis, by the present, has forgotten how to do.

So, the show asks us, Is it okay to kill people? Of course not! Philosophically, how could you ever agree to that? Even here in the conclusion, as I am about to justify Lestat, I can’t let go of Louis’ moral high ground. But, the show tells us, if Louis is not wrong, he certainly isn’t right either. And if Lestat isn’t right, he’s also not wrong. Lestat understands that the joy of being a vampire is accessing pleasure and communing with the human body. For all that Louis has the moral high ground, for all that he claims to have done so out of a love or at least respect for humans, he has removed himself from them. Louis cannot commune with humans. Louis, as he says, is bored, and his attempts to be strictly moral have put him there.

Soft Magic in Hadestown

Hadestown is an up-and-coming Broadway musical based on the concept album by Anaïs Mitchell. It’s about hope, doubt, love, and how Orpheus sucks at keeping his head on straight. Casually set in a post-apocalyptic, climate-screwed world – with a 1930s depression-era blues, train-stations, and hard-times vibe – Hadestown tells the story of Orpheus and Eurydice (that’s being the one where Orpheus follows Eurydice into the underworld and wins her back with a song, but then must exit the underworld without looking back to see if she’s following). There’s a lot to say, from the subtle use of an amphitheater for the set, to the amazing use of Hermes as a narrator, to the songs themselves, to Eurydice being given the agency to choose her death, to the use of rattling coins to equate the rattlesnake in the original myth with the train in the musical, to the contrast of Orpheus the dreamer to Eurydice the realist. But I’m going to talk about the soft magic, because the soft magic is what I’m here for.

ALSO: SPOILERS

The Magic System
Some ancestry, my dearies! Orpheus’s parentage is a little squiggy and depends on who you ask. His father may be the god Apollo or Oeagrus, the king of Thrace. Atlas (like, The Atlas) may be involved somewhere in the way-back-when. But his mother is definitely Calliope, the muse of eloquence and epic poetry. His mother is the important bit anyway. Orpheus is a poet, a divine poet, The Poet. So we can assume his magic has to do with poetry, and music since he plays the lyre. Throw in that this is a musical and you better believe this is a music magic system.

At the beginning of the musical, Orpheus tells us he’s writing a song that will bring back spring (spring having high-tailed it for friendlier climates what with Hades and Persephone being on the rocks). But how could a song possibly save spring? NOT THE POINT STOP KILLING THE MOOD. No, but there are emotional reasons that become clear in the climax.

The Trials
THERE ARE THREE BECAUSE OF COURSE THERE ARE.

In the first trial, Orpheus fails. While he’s up in the clouds writing his song, Eurydice is out in the cold trying to get them food and generally keep them alive. She calls out to him, but he’s too lost in his song to hear.

He then must DO something about his love for Eurydice and venture into the underworld. But how will he get past the Fates and all the other nasties? He’ll play his song of course. This is from the original myth, but there’s a twist. Hades is building a wall, to keep the people of Hades safe, to give the people of Hades something to work on, and to keep poverty out (read: to brainwash them). So the trial is less getting past the three-headed dog Cerberus than to get past the wall. So when he sings his song, which is going to bring back spring and move the earth, the earth moves. This is the only time the set (not the floor, that’s a whole other thing) does anything. It moves. It pulls back, breaks apart, and Orpheus gets through.

The third trial is the climax, but I want to break off for a tick to talk about another smidge of small-magic that pops up at this point.

The Walls Have Ears
Eurydice, who is working alongside Lethe, the river of forgetfulness, has begun to forget Orpheus. Here he sings not his song, but “If It’s True.” The workers pick up the song and Eurydice comes to. Why does this work? Because the walls have ears.

You can dismiss this as a really dumb pun if you want, but I can’t emphasize enough how much I love it. The idiom ‘the walls have ears’ may come from the king of Syracuse, who carved out a cave to listen to his political prisoners. So it’s got a pretty literal meaning. The idiom works here at a gut-level because it takes a deeply-rooted idiom and kicks it up to personification. It also works thematically. The people, who have forgotten themselves, are nearly stone themselves, yet they still have ears. The strongest magic in this show is music. If anything can move the stones, it’s Orpheus’s songs.

The Climax
As you would expect, the final trial is when Orpheus sings to Hades to win back Eurydice (now, debateably the final trial is when Orpheus must walk back to the world of the living without looking back to see if Eurydice is following, which, sure. But especially with the way the musical is formatted, that has more to do with the story of Orpheus the dreamer vs. Eurydice the realist rather than the return of spring, so I would say it’s the final trial of a different story-line). In the original myth Orpheus sings a song so beautiful Hades sheds an iron tear and agrees. Pretty straight-forward. Orpheus finishes his song, sings it, woot.

Fortunately I have another twist for you. If you recall, Orpheus promised to bring back spring. His song could just magic spring back, but why settle for that when Hades and Persephone are right there waiting for some character development?

Hermes explains early on that Orpheus has plucked a melody from the earth itself. It’s the melody Hades sang when he first fell in love with Persephone. These days, Hades covets her. He comes to collect her from the world of the living early. But he’s forgotten what it was to love her. When Orpheus begins to sing the melody, Hades starts from his stool, asks where Orpheus got that melody, and near stops the song. Persephone holds him back and Orpheus, who loves Eurydice as much as Hades once loved Persephone, who has literally come through hell to prove his love to Eurydice, keeps singing. Orpheus approaches the end of the song and then trails off. Hades pauses and then finishes the song himself – since it is, after all, his song. Dammit I love it.

Cool prop note: The first time Orpheus sings his melody, a poppy appears in his hand. When Hades finishes the song, a poppy appears in his and spring is returned. New life for the world and his relationship.

Striking Images

In Gaston Baudelaire’s lovely exploration of setting in fiction, The Poetics of Space, he writes, “Words are clamor-filled shells. There’s many a story in the miniature of a single word.” The word, or perhaps we might say image, I took away from the book was vast. The feeling of vast, yellow and wide and a little ominous, became my short story A Yellow Landscape. I thought a lot about imagery in that story. In fiction workshops they’ll tell you to seek out striking images, advice that always baffled me because the examples were so few and far between, subjective as the idea of ‘striking’ is. Nonetheless the advice has stuck with me and I’ve started to gather a little hoard of images, images I can still remember years later, or images that made me stop reading and go oof. I don’t have a definitive answer, a How To Write A Striking Image list, but I have some examples and some reasons I liked them.

On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous by Ocean Vuong

“You would look down on this grove of pines, the fresh tips flared lucent at each rooftop…[to] the two boys lying side by side, the blood already dry on their cheeks…What’s left of November seeps through their jeans, their thin knit sweaters. If you were god, you’d notice that they’re staring up at you. They’re clapping and singing ‘This Little Light of Mine.'”

Briefly Gorgeous is about death, loss, war, and the things that we never had. So when I read this, I knew these boys were dead. I knew they’d been left in the woods to die. They’re covered in blood like soldiers, growing cold like the the November seeping through their jeans, and their lifeless bodies are staring after their souls toward God. And then suddenly, like a reel playing backwards, they’re alive. More than anything, this scene boggled me because it was like a magic trick where Vuong raises the dead. Only for a little though, because one of these characters does die later, like we’re glimpsing into the future. The moment also rings through the whole story because attempting – and failing – to raise the dead is sort of the point.

The Refrigerator Monologues by Catherynne Valente

“A long, red curl slides out of the black pearl comb in her hair and lands on the table like a spurt of blood.”

Good sentences revolve around their last few words. They lean forward, tense. Even as you speed toward the period, you should wonder, How will the sentence end? Robert McKee talks about it in Story: Substance, Structure, Style, and the Principles of Screenwriting in The Suspense Sentence section if you want more discussion of the idea. Valente’s sentence ends in a punch, a spurt of blood. It could feel gimmicky. Blood is so obviously striking that it gets overused. But I like it here because everything else pulls back, the language becoming plain and straightforward, and the image itself isn’t overstated. The story pauses, and then moves on. This moment is also a bit of a centerpiece. The Refrigerator Monologues is about women who have been made to suffer in silence, to bear ridicule, indifference, and abuse. It is as though all we see of this woman’s pain is a single spurt of blood, when we know inside she must be hemorrhaging.

Tea Time by Rachel Swirsky

For the full weight of the final line, I feel I must give the whole passage:

“Let us be clear about this:

“When the Queen of Hearts accused the hatter of murdering Time, she was telling the truth.

“Did the hatter kill Time? Yes. Is that the reason why the hatter and the hare are forever caught in this interminable tea time hour? It is.

“But is a soldier in the wrong when he dispatches an enemy of the empire? Is a father guilty when, in protecting his daughter from highwaymen, he resorts to his rifle?

“No. A man should not be excoriated for self-defense.

“Time provoked the hatter. No man can question it.

“Tell the truth—have you not felt the indignities of Time? The way he rushes when you wish to linger with a lover, but dwells stagnantly on the endless sprawl of an agonizing wait? Have you no gray hairs? No twinges? No creaking joints?

Admit it. Time has provoked you, too.”

So this slashfic about the Hatter and the March Hare is one of the most beautiful pieces of fiction I’ve ever read. I could just point you there and and go home. But the line I want to focus on is the very last one: “Admit it. Time has provoked you, too.” Just like in Valente’s sentence, this passage leans forward, tumbling us on to the final sentence. It stops us up short with an abrupt, two-word sentence: “Admit it.” Then we are left with almost a sigh, a soft and comforting ‘too,’ but also an uncomfortable and sharper ‘provoked,’ because: Admit it. Time has provoked you. This passage is not a dramatic twist where you’re shocked at the the end, but there is a soft little twist as it addresses you directly, bringing you in with mundane examples of age and agonizing waits so that you’re left with a final moment of, Oh. Oh, time has provoked me.

A Stranger in Olondria by Sofia Samatar

“And the flowers of the courtyard, exhausted with heat, hang on their stalks like handkerchiefs forgotten after a midnight ball.”

I don’t have a lot to say about this. Simply, the first time I read this, the image of the flowers as handkerchiefs, which evoked the emptiness of a hall as the final guests stumble home at dawn, and the exhaustion and glory of decadence, was like a physical sensation in my body. It’s a glorious and wonderful metaphor.

The Habitation of the Blessed by Catherynne Valente

“John stood with the drawn damask clutched in his white hand, and watched a sullen orange sun set on the city of dust, and his beard grew even in that moment, his scalp showed pink through his hair, and his spine became a bent scythe, until he was an old man in my sight, and he wept.”

This is toward the end of the book and John has ruined everything in the way that only white men who think they’re right and you’re wrong can. And yet, in this moment, as he watches his city, the city he loves, the city he’s lost and will never return to, burn to the ground, he becomes frail, and we morn with him. We feel the sharp ache of the scythe bearing him down, all the more poignant for the simply stated ‘and he wept,’ neatly divided from the rest of the sentence by the comma.

Yet the transformation is also horrible. He will not save anyone, not even himself. His body becomes a scythe, an instrument of death and ruin, not only to those around him, but to himself too. The ‘bent’ suggests it might even be a broken scythe, one that can’t properly cut wheat and grains for harvest, but only wreck.

And, analysis aside, the image of the scythe is so perfectly simple and clear and, if I may, striking.

The Search for Delicious by Natalie Babbitt

Let’s end on a  pleasant image, one that’s been with me since grade school:

“The most delicious thing of all is a cold leg of chicken eaten in an orchard early in the morning in April when you have a friend to share it with and a brown dog to clean up the scraps. You’ll have to write it all down because every word is important.”

I don’t have a lot to say about this either. The Search for Delicious is a lovely, sweet story and I adore the quiet and yet wonderous nature of Gaylen’s journey. Gaylen is writing a dictionary and polling everyone to find out what the most people agree is delicious. Of course the minstrel’s answer is far too specific to ever be the most agreed on answer. He even says, “You’ll have to write it all down because every word is important.” But of all the examples in the book, from apples to cake to the final answer of water, I can’t help but think, what is more delicious than this?

Musings On Jamie Lannister

In the third Game of Thrones book, A Storm of Swords, Jamie Lannister’s hand is cut off. I love this moment because it is very simple and it requires Jamie to reconstruct his entire identity.

Even if you’ve never read the series, most of what you need to know about who Jamie is is present in the chapter leading up to his mutilation. At this point, Jamie has been captured by Brienne, his hands are chained, and they are traveling. The chapter starts:

At Maidenpool, Lord Mooton’s red salmon still flew above the castle on its hill, but the town walls were deserted, the gates smashed, half the homes and shops burned or plundered…The pool from which the town took its name, which legend said that Florian the Fool had first glimpsed Jonquil bathing with her sisters, was so choked with rotting corpses that the water had turned into a murky green soup.Jamie took one look and burst into song. “Six maids there were in a spring-fed pool…

“What are you doing?” Brienne demanded.

“Singing. ‘Six Maids in a Pool,’ I’m sure you’ve heard it. And shy little maids they were, too. Rather like you. Though somewhat prettier, I’ll warrant.”

“Be quiet,” the wench said.

They are ambushed by archers and even though Jamie is a chained prisoner, he takes command, pinpointing where the archers are and telling Brienne to charge them. They do and the archers scatter.

She sheathed her sword. “Why did you charge?”

“Bowmen are fearless so long as they can hide behind walls and shoot at you from afar, but if you come at them, they run. They know what will happen when you reach them.”

Jamie acquires a sword and fights Brienne in an attempt to escape. The most telling line during the exchange is, “Jamie’s blood was singing. This was what he was meant for; he never felt so alive as when he was fighting, with death balanced on every stroke.”

They both cut each other and eventually Jamie falls and Brienne nearly drowns him. However, they are ambushed again and captured, Jamie attempting to make bargains and promises of gold all the way. However Jamie’s word isn’t worth much because once upon a time Jamie swore an oath to the king and then killed him and his family.

So here’s what we know about Jamie.

-He won’t show fear. Upon walking into a recently ravaged town, while chained up and unarmed, he is so cocksure and proud he starts singing a bawdy song.

-He is constantly fighting to gain the upper hand in conversation through wit and bribery. Normally, he is successful.

-He doesn’t respect Brienne and though he acknowledges toward the end of the fight that she is strong, he openly insults her skill, makes excuses about being out of practice in his head, and continues to degrade her afterwards.

-He is ashamed of being the Kingslayer.

-He is an amazing fighter. Specifically, this is who he is. This is what everyone knows him for and almost no one is better than him.

And then: “Sunlight ran silver along the edge of the arakh as it came shivering down, almost too fast to see. And Jamie screamed.”

Jamie’s sword hand is cut off. Both practically and symbolically, he has lost what makes him who he is.

He is ridiculed and made ridiculous when he picks up a sword with his left hand and fails utterly, his opponent “hopping from leg to leg” before he “planted a wet kiss atop [Jamie’s] head.”

He has lost his pride, his skill, himself.

When Brienne calls him craven for wanting to die, something no one has ever, ever called him, Jamie wonders, “They took my sword hand. Was that all I was, a sword hand? Gods be good, is it true?

Hey, look, it’s the question that will drive his internal arc for the rest of the book.

So who will Jamie be now?

Jamie wants to remake himself in his old image. All he can possibly imagine being is who he used to be. He motivates himself to live with the thought of revenge and replacing his hand with a golden one. He reminds himself, “I am stronger than they know…I am still a knight of the Kingsguard.”

He retains his wit:

“You have lost your hand.”

“No,” said Jamie, “I have it here, hanging round my neck.”

When a doctor cleans his wound, he refuses pain killers:

Qyburn was taken aback. “There will be pain.”

“I’ll scream.”

“A great deal of pain.”

“I’ll scream very loudly.”

But returning to who he was is impossible, which is part of why this arc is so compelling. On a surface level, Jamie desperately wants to regain his old identity and he will fight for that for a long time. But really, as soon as he lost his hand that is no longer an option. Not only does this make his struggle all the more difficult and compelling, but the character arc stronger because everything is pointing to him changing.

As he begins to recover, Jamie is unable to maintain his derision for Brienne. When the men holding them captive try to rape her, he gives her advice, tells her to wall herself off, as he has done (also a great hint at Jamie’s suppressed emotions, which is going to be really important). When she insists on fighting and the men are about to mutilate her too, he protects her by reminding them that if she is raped, her father won’t pay for her ransom. The men are forced to back off. Jamie makes light of it, jokes again at Brienne’s expense, “You’re hard enough to look at with a nose. Besides, I wanted to make the goat say ‘thapphiteth.’” But we know this isn’t true. They’re in this together and she saved him from his suicidal thoughts.

Later, after insulting Brienne’s loyalty, he actually apologizes, “Are you as a thick as a castle wall? That was an apology. I am tired of fighting with you. What say we make a truce?”

After riding away from Brienne soon after, Jamie puts himself at a great deal of risk by returning to her and saving her in a bear pit. He begins biting back his cruel comments and acknowledges not only her skill, but why she has chosen to become a knight and suffer the brunt of the world. Being a more traditional lady is something she simply can’t be. That recognition requires a lot of respect and introspection.

Jamie’s loss of identity slowly brings something else to the forefront: a large part of his old identity is being the Kingslayer and of this he is deeply ashamed. If he wants to regain his old identity, he will have to accept being the Kingslayer rather than just stumbling into it. He can’t do that. He’s too ashamed. While his respect for Brienne arises subtly and unconsciously, Jamie has to face this actively.

When Jamie’s hand is cut off, he doesn’t quite realize how much he doesn’t want to be the Kingslayer. That comes out when he begins to confide in Brienne, telling her what happened the day he killed the king. He has suppressed his emotional turmoil, but by talking about it, he has to confront his past choices and how it has made everyone treat him. Later, he has horrible dreams and agonizes over his decisions and guilt. In other words, he becomes more empathetic and emotionally intelligent. When at one point Brienne calls him Kingslayer, “Jamie, he thought, my name is Jamie.”

When Jamie reaches Kingslanding, the external forces set in. He has hoped to regain stability when he gets home. With his family, he knows who he is. No longer will he be wandering the woods, agonizing over his choices. At home, he is the commander of the kingsguard, Tywin’s son, and Cersei’s brother and lover.

But everything is just a little off. His son is dead, supposedly killed by Jamie’s own brother. He and Cersei are still physically attracted to each other, but she’s distant. She avoids him because she’s afraid of being caught and, unbeknownst to Jamie, is sleeping with someone else. Being in the kingsguard is meant to be a position for life, but while he was away, one of the guards was replaced due to old age. So even Jamie’s position is uncertain. His father tells him that he should give up his position and when Jamie refuses, flying into a rage, his father says, “‘You are not my son.’ Lord Tywin turned his face away. ‘You said you are the Lord Commander of the Kingsguard, and only that. Very well, ser. Go do your duty.’” A little while later, Jamie thinks, “I am a stranger in my own House.” Jamie has lost his entire family, his entire house. He is barely a Lannister anymore.

Of course, it’s not a straight line and there are many smaller moments I’m not covering here. Jamie still wallows in his shame at being a kingslayer, renaming himself that several times. His wit is still aggressive and cruel. He and Brienne still clash. He respects her, but they’re never going to be friends. He has another encounter with Cersei that effectively ends their relationship because their desires have gone different ways. He struggles with the physical weight of his sword on his right side and the clumsiness of his left hand. He claims to be as good a swordsman with his left hand, but when he trains in secret, he is roundly defeated.

But at the end of the book, his new budding identity culminates when he sends Brienne to find Sansa. Brienne swore an oath to find and protect the girl. Cersei wants Sansa dead and by sending Brienne away, Jamie is betraying Cersei. Jamie’s father gives him a beautiful, mocking sword, which he gives to Brienne, effectively giving up on his identity of the best swordsman in the land. He also asks Brienne to name it Oathkeeper and keep Sansa safe with it, an attempt to redeem himself vicariously through her.

Jamie’s arc after this book is beyond the scope of this essay, but I want to mention one moment that happens later, because it is so vivid and painful. Jamie begins to train using his left hand with Ilyn Payne, a man without a tongue. The reason for the choice is obvious, as he can’t tell anyone about the beating he gives Jamie every night. But there’s a wonderful moment where Payne smiles at Jamie because even though he can’t tell anyone, he knows Jamie’s shame. It’s a great moment of vulnerability and heartache.

I love this character arc because it begins with a simple act and then unfurls into a complex and beautiful shift in character. He is still fighting to be who he is and there are parts of him that will remain the same, such as his military skill and biting humor. But the core of who he was isn’t sustainable. The change is not radical. Large changes of character often feel ingenuine and impossible. Jamie’s arc turns on one small idea: he wants to be someone who keep his word. He grows close to a woman whose defining trait is loyalty. He becomes a stranger in the Lannister house, a house of liars. He acknowledges and turns away from his past misdeeds. In the end, he sends a loyal woman to keep her word with a sword named Oathkeeper. And that choice is not a choice he ever would have made before.